For the first time, Dr. Dummypants was like "you're really doing great, Melissa.. I think this will be good.. you'll be fine". This, she never said to me EVER. My first appointment with her was very grim. She was straightforward and did not nice words. She basically said at that first appointment that I had a very aggressive cancer and she really didn't have high hopes but we were going to attack it aggressively and do what we could. We cried afterwards. I thought she was horrible, but really, she was just being honest from her experience. Granted... by her admission and other oncologists we saw, not much is known about my specific cancer. It's not, as she called it "your garden variety cancer". Large Cell Neuroendocrine Carcinoma/Tumor was what they called it at first (being that tumors were inside my uterus). Now they just say "Large Cell Neuroendocrine Cancer".
Also, not sure if I had written about my weekly chemo. It's really fantastic. NO LEG PAINS!! I don't know if that's from the lack of Carboplatin or just less dosages per week of the Taxol. A Taxol side effect is leg pain so who knows. I'm still fatigued and feel like I have the flu for a few days but without that pain it's like I could do this forever! Although you kind of get used to feeing tired and like shit so when I'm off it, I don't realize how good I feel.
I gain weight because it is far too taxing to exercise. I should just not do as much as I used to when I did exercise. Little bits. Baby steps.
I'm riding a 'roid wave right now. The steroids always make me a bit hyper and wide awake. I probably won't go to sleep until 5 am again. I have projects to do anyway so maybe I'll work on those. :P
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