I had my last full scan in December and on the 17th, got the results.
Although everything in my pelvic region looks good, there are a few swollen lymph nodes in my chest. The doctor immediately asked me if I'd had Bronchitis or anything like that and I said that I did have a wicked chest cold. In fact, it was the first time I took Mucinex because it was gnarly... and I could feel the gunk in my chest. Mucinex loosened it and I hawked lung cookies for a week. The cold went to my throat and my ears itched.. then settled in my nose. My eyes watered constantly.
I rarely get a cold like this. Maybe once a year so we are going to go ahead and put this under "lymph nodes doing their job".
But, to be on the safe side. Dr. Dummypants set me up for another scan in 6 weeks. Chest only (which means on barium sulfate crap YAY!).
At first I was gutted, but I thought right away that this was nothing. I knew it really. When I was diagnosed last year, I knew something was wrong.
But, if it is cancer again, I'll get chemo or radiation or whatever. I'm not going to give up or let this thing take over. If all it's doing is irritating some lymph nodes, it's early and damage control is imminent.
It's been a year since I was diagnosed. A year since Christmas for my hysterectomy and it feels like yesterday. A YEAR!
Mortality really frays your brain. I was able to compartmentalize but it's a kind of mental torture, really.
I feel healthy and good. I have residuals with pains in my fingers and toes but Dr. Dummypants says that's nerve endings re-growing. Long process.
Finally claimed bankruptcy and guess what? The state sent me a letter to say "hey, you're approved.. we'll pay everything, no copay". WELL THANK YOU VERY MUCH STATE OF MICHIGAN BUT YOU'RE TOO LATE!
Which reminds me... I have to make some calls to let people know if they haven't wiped my slate clean they can bill the state. :D BILL 'EM... DOOOO EEEET!
In summary; Cancer sucks. Yes, I got a cool new hair cut but that's about it. My credit is ruined, nearly lost my house and suffered through most of 2010.
(cover your ears)
TWO THOUSAND TEN YOU SUCKED ASS!
*curtsy*
Fuck 2010. I've no idea why, but that year was oppressive for a lot of my friends.
ReplyDeleteI didn't know you'd had some plumbing removed. :o I just want to say "Sorry", because even if you hadn't wanted children, or it was beyond that era for you, if it was me, I'd find it hard. Being a woman means a lot more than having a uterus, but the world sure talks about it 90% of your life like that's what makes you one.
So...6 weeks, that's like, mid-February? That's when you get your next exam?
Also, am I understanding correctly that the state of MI (mystery island) would have paid for all your medical bills, so that your filing for bankruptcy might have been avoided, if only they'd been more prompt with their response? I want to make sure I'm understanding correctly before I blow a gasket.
{{{{ pile of sloppy hugs }}}}
Well, yes! It means they will pay for anything submitted to them now but I have already claimed bankruptcy.
ReplyDeleteThey sent me a letter in May that denied me. They asked me to fill out a medical form AFTER that determination and 1/2 a year later they go "oh yeah, APPROVED!".
Like most government agencies, they're totally whacked. Cool thing is, they'll cover everything right now.
I'm surprised you didn't know about the Ute being yoinked. Yoinked Ute.. HEEEEE! The cancer was in my uterus as a Large Cell Neuroendocrine tumor. Nice, yeah?
If a part of me is mourning for the loss of my uterus, it's a very quiet part. It occurs to me that all chance is lost of replicating myself but I really could care less. Ok, maybe I could care a LITTLE less..
Either way ILU FLORENCE JEAN McScatterpants!
Jean.... Heh! Have I ever told you my full middle name(s)? Better not. 0:-)
ReplyDeleteYes I don't know how I missed that little detail. (Sorry). For some reason I thought there were spots in or near your lungs. Sorry if you've been plain about it and I forgot somehow; entirely possible with this medication I'm taking that's kind of interfering with my memory. x_x
Glad you've got coverage now!
ILU2 Melissa Arlene McMewmewpants. :*