Ahhhh.. the sweet savory scent of Radiation..

OK, it has no scent, but the radiation-oncology center does! The chemo infusion center has it's own peculiar smell too.

So, it's been 15 days of radiation. I have 13 more treatments (I think). I should be done around September 21st.

This time around they are zapping my lymph nodes in the mediastinum area. Up and down the center of my chest so my esophagus is sort of in the way. It's getting irritated and painful to swallow at times.

My back is killing me too. Just this nagging ache in my lower back. You must lay on a metal slab, basically... and they have a mold made for my head/shoulders and I have to hold my arms over my head on the table for about 15-20 mins. This puts odd strain on my lower back.

I'm very nauseous as I'm typing this. Nothing much has given me nausea throughout all of my treatments so why now? it's weird.

I'M SO over this. I don't even want to talk about it or pontificate or be introspective or interesting. I just want to be done. I'm a sour puss patient. I'm getting grouchy. It just seems relentless. I've been getting treatment since the beginning of February and it's like ARE YOU EFFING KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW???? 8 months of treatment when I'm done. Tears are welling up in my eyes as I type this because I am feeling just a teensy bit sorry for myself. It's been hard on my body, hard on my spirit. Jill's been great but I know it's hard on her too. We try to stay positive and maintain a level of normalcy but under that surface is a lake of tears.

We're thinking about moving. We've got our eye on a few houses and I really want to change but some part of me is clinging to my old place. Also I think of all the things that need to be done and I'm just freaking EXHAUSTED. Seriously. We have to hire people to move us because there is no way.
So many expenses to think of and my tummy hurts so I'm done writing this.

SUNSHINE AND LOLLIPOPS AND.... stuff.